Guilfoyle's chest steady underneath her small, clumsy child's hand; Coupe, inexorable, who is holding the knife?
We learn to cope. She has learned—
“Sometimes it has been like you say,” she admits, thinking of the Fade. Lakshmi Bai. The hot panicky feeling on the back of her neck when she'd been sick on the other woman's feet, not so much because of the blow but because of where it had taken her. “I got into a fight once — I started it but it was her fault, we should never have been in the Fade — anyway, she hit harder than me. And I just—”
Every part of her body had remembered being somewhere else and it had not been easy, especially in a place so molded by emotion, to remember where she was.
“I used to— provoke,” she settles on. “It would be wrong of me to harm myself. Selfish. My life wasn't mine, I owed it to my mothers, but if someone else—”
The picture she paints, halting, is not a lovely one. She settles on: “I thought it would be better to be Tranquil. I don't want it any more — any of that, I don't. And I don't want to do to anyone what this feels like,” Casimir, Alistair, Cullen, Pentaghast, “I promise.”
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We learn to cope. She has learned—
“Sometimes it has been like you say,” she admits, thinking of the Fade. Lakshmi Bai. The hot panicky feeling on the back of her neck when she'd been sick on the other woman's feet, not so much because of the blow but because of where it had taken her. “I got into a fight once — I started it but it was her fault, we should never have been in the Fade — anyway, she hit harder than me. And I just—”
Every part of her body had remembered being somewhere else and it had not been easy, especially in a place so molded by emotion, to remember where she was.
“I used to— provoke,” she settles on. “It would be wrong of me to harm myself. Selfish. My life wasn't mine, I owed it to my mothers, but if someone else—”
The picture she paints, halting, is not a lovely one. She settles on: “I thought it would be better to be Tranquil. I don't want it any more — any of that, I don't. And I don't want to do to anyone what this feels like,” Casimir, Alistair, Cullen, Pentaghast, “I promise.”