You'd think he'd asked her to move to the Fallow Mire, with the anxious way her face twists, teeth set to chewing on her lower lip. Her thoughts are such a tangle it feels impossible to tug anything useful out of them, a mess of anxiety and intellectualizing and compulsion, and the longer she makes Stephen wait for a response, the worse it gets. This is a conversation, she has to do something, he's going to figure out she's not worth spending the time on—
"Did you—"
Ness cuts herself off, grimacing, face red and eyes on the table. She intended to agree, and leave it at that, and steer them to a new conversation topic. Back to the runes on the cuff, maybe, or showing him how she can prestidigitate stains out of fabric. She still could, probably, if she thought about it enough.
But gods, she wants to know.
"Did you mean it?" She looks up to meet Stephen's eyes, then back to the table, and then, slowly, back to his eyes, searching. Desperately, stupidly hopeful, embarrassing, juvenile, selfish.
Stephen is struck by the fact that he’s sitting here soothing a teen girl’s anxieties, his one sleeve sheared off and arm bared to the elbow, her own bloodied with it. What a situation. There’s a helpless laugh bubbling up in the back of his throat but he doesn’t let it out.
“Ennaris Tavane,” he says, a little sharp in order to drive the point home.
“I don’t lie to people to coddle their pride. I don’t soothe with empty flattery; I would never bother, it would be a waste of my time and yours and inaccurate besides. You are good at your job. You hit the ground running and embraced responsibility, what, a mere month after your arrival? It took me a year to come around on it and decide to commit. Whereas you jumped in and immediately started getting your hands dirty tackling supply issues, the penicillin manufacture, the trade for glass and paper.
Ness hasn't thought about anything she's done in Thedas that generously, and it shows in the startled bewilderment of her expression as Stephen lists her accomplishments. She's always felt herself behind, not doing enough, constantly trying to prove that she's worth the effort expended on her, that she should be allowed to stay—the idea that she's done more than others, than Stephen, more than anyone would have expected of her—
She blinks at him, wide-eyed and processing, for a long moment. When a slow smile finally spreads across her face, it's not just gratitude that lights her up—though that's there too, in no small measure—but also... relief.
"Thank you. I'll... try to rest more."
Her smile lingers for a moment, buoyed by his praise, before Ness refocuses, looking to her injured arm and the cuff, assessing. Yeah, that wasn't her smartest move, was it? She hesitates, then raises her eyes back to Stephen's, smile gone tentative, a little shy.
"I should get a potion for this. Would you come with me? We can theorize on how the cuff works while we walk."
“Certainly. And we’ll have to get that cuff off,” and it isn’t going to be pleasant when they do so, “but I’m hoping the potion will dull the pain when it hits.”
Stephen rises from the table, not wasting any time for them to pack up their things and head off to tend to the wound properly, the man ceaselessly awake despite the late hour thanks to that jolt of adrenaline. He’s not always warm or kind in his compliments — it’s more like a stern performance appraisal, the flattery doled out like the crack of a whip — but at the end of the day it was, still, a compliment. He thinks well of Ennaris.
She got her hands dirty and she did the work. That’s all any of them can ask for.
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"Did you—"
Ness cuts herself off, grimacing, face red and eyes on the table. She intended to agree, and leave it at that, and steer them to a new conversation topic. Back to the runes on the cuff, maybe, or showing him how she can prestidigitate stains out of fabric. She still could, probably, if she thought about it enough.
But gods, she wants to know.
"Did you mean it?" She looks up to meet Stephen's eyes, then back to the table, and then, slowly, back to his eyes, searching. Desperately, stupidly hopeful, embarrassing, juvenile, selfish.
"That I'm good at it. You mean it?"
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“Ennaris Tavane,” he says, a little sharp in order to drive the point home.
“I don’t lie to people to coddle their pride. I don’t soothe with empty flattery; I would never bother, it would be a waste of my time and yours and inaccurate besides. You are good at your job. You hit the ground running and embraced responsibility, what, a mere month after your arrival? It took me a year to come around on it and decide to commit. Whereas you jumped in and immediately started getting your hands dirty tackling supply issues, the penicillin manufacture, the trade for glass and paper.
“So, yes. I mean it.”
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Ness hasn't thought about anything she's done in Thedas that generously, and it shows in the startled bewilderment of her expression as Stephen lists her accomplishments. She's always felt herself behind, not doing enough, constantly trying to prove that she's worth the effort expended on her, that she should be allowed to stay—the idea that she's done more than others, than Stephen, more than anyone would have expected of her—
She blinks at him, wide-eyed and processing, for a long moment. When a slow smile finally spreads across her face, it's not just gratitude that lights her up—though that's there too, in no small measure—but also... relief.
"Thank you. I'll... try to rest more."
Her smile lingers for a moment, buoyed by his praise, before Ness refocuses, looking to her injured arm and the cuff, assessing. Yeah, that wasn't her smartest move, was it? She hesitates, then raises her eyes back to Stephen's, smile gone tentative, a little shy.
"I should get a potion for this. Would you come with me? We can theorize on how the cuff works while we walk."
🎀
Stephen rises from the table, not wasting any time for them to pack up their things and head off to tend to the wound properly, the man ceaselessly awake despite the late hour thanks to that jolt of adrenaline. He’s not always warm or kind in his compliments — it’s more like a stern performance appraisal, the flattery doled out like the crack of a whip — but at the end of the day it was, still, a compliment. He thinks well of Ennaris.
She got her hands dirty and she did the work. That’s all any of them can ask for.